Last night it finally happened. I walked around to the west side of my back yard, through the garden gate and there hanging from one of the vines was a beautiful site to behold: a small, red, grape tomato. The first one of the season. Up until this point I’ve mostly just had a vision for what could be, but last night the vision turned ripe with reality. I love having a garden!
Last night after I picked that tomato, I pulled a few onions from the ground, looked at the beans that will be ready for a first harvest this weekend, and noticed I have several cucumbers that have begun to grow and a few squash that are forming on the ends of their vine. Sure, there are still some weeds that pop through the soil that need pulling, and I still have to inspect plants for harmful little pests, but that’s ok because I’ve begun to see the fruits of my labor. The small reward of “fruit” is a unique inspiration.
I know it’s been a while – ok, a really long time since I’ve posted. You ever just not feel like writing? It’s not that there’s been nothing to write about; I just haven’t felt like writing. I’ve been doing more reading and thinking than writing. When I went to bed last night I reflected on the development of my back-yard garden and I realized I’ve been doing some internal gardening.
I’ve been reading and thinking a lot about grace. For most of my life I’ve had a real passive understanding of grace. By passive I mean that I felt like grace was something I received from God and not something I actively dispensed to others. God’s been gently showing me otherwise. Grace is far from passive. I’m not sure what this grace garden will look like, and I’m not sure when it will blossom. At this point there’s still a lot of weeding and cultivating to do. So I’ll have to keep you posted. In the meantime, I’m going to be eating a lot of tomatoes.
July 11, 2008 at 9:41 pm
So I’ve been thinking a lot about grace too. But I have to confess, tomatoes have not been at the top of my mind. And I swear it does not have anything to do with salmonella.
Mostly thoughts about grace because I seem to need more than most. When Paul talks about doing that which I don’t want to do and not doing what I do want to do, I get that.
I tell myself that I’m going to spend more time in the word and less time watching sports. More time reflecting and less time doing stuff that does not make a long-term difference. But then I don’t. And that’s probably where grace comes in. I think I rely too much on what I think I should be doing and not enough in just being open to obedience.
I’ve said before I think we live far below what God planned for us because of a lack of obedience. But grace exists so we can live at all.
Keep up the good writing.
AO